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Bleeding heart.Bruised ego.&Inked fingertips.

A week later...

Why do I spend every second of every minute of every hour thinking about you When I know you probably dont even spend a split second of your day doing the sameWhy do I know that you wont call But Ive held the phone soo close to me, hoping that it would be you.Why do I know its over But I still hope that maybe on tuesday you'll tell me, lets start over.Why replay over and over the moments we spent together Though I know that in the end, it only tortures me even more Why do I hold back the tears When I know that it does absolutely nothing, since you dont see the pain im inflicted withWhy do I feel like I shouldn't tell you anything Though in my heart, there is too many things I regret not telling youWhy do I feel like just distancing myself from you Although all I wish is you to hold me againIve never felt like thisIt hurts, it stings, it killsBut in the end,it only made me realiseThat you did make me feelMade me feel to know how it isTo be loved & cherishedBut alsoTo be heartbroken& I'll " Overanalyze your words. But the truth is, i've never fallen so hard..♥"The Spill Canvas // All Hail the Heartbreaker

In a perfect world...

I meet your expectationsI am the girl you first fell in love withIn your eyes, I am the personafication of perfection I am affectionate, loveableUnlike no otherI am confidentI am strong, opiniatedI show public affectionI openly tell you how I feelI let you into my world There is no secrets between usI support you in your moments of weaknessI make you smileI am the sun to your rainy days...BUT I am only human...& perfection is not part of the job description"Say it ain't so, your drug is a heartbreaker..♥ "Weezer // Say It Aint So

{Ouch...}

BUT you, BUT you...Write such pretty wordsBut life is no storybook.Love is an excuse to get hurt& to hurt"Do you like to hurt?""I do. I Do""Then hurt me."THEN HURT ME. Lover I dont Have to Love // Bright Eyes..♥

You give me wings..<3

lately i've been wishing i had one desiresomething that would make me never want anothersomething that would make it so that nothing mattersall would be clear thenbut i guess i'll have to settle for a for a few brief momentsand watch all dissolve into a single secondand try to write it down into a perfect sonnetor one foolish linebecause that's all that you'll get so you'll have to acceptyou are here and then you're gonebut i believe that lovers should be tied together andthrown into the ocean in the worst of weatherand left there to drownleft there to drownin their innocencebut as for me i'm coming to the final chapteri read all of the pages and there is still no answeronly all that was before i know must soon come afterthat is the only way it can beso i stand in the sunand i breathe with my lungstrying to spare me the weight of the truthsaying everything you have ever seen was just a mirrorand you've spent your whole life sweating in an endless feverand now you are laying ina bathtum full of freezing waterwishing you were a ghostbut once you knew a girl and you named her loverand danced with her in kitchens through the greenest summerbut autumn came, she disappearedyou don't remember where she said she was going tobut you know that she is gone because she left you a songthat you don't want to singwe're singing i believe that lovers should be chained togetherand thrown into a fire with their songs and lettersand left there to burn in their arrogancebut as for me i'm coming to my final failurei've killed myself with changes trying to make things betterbut i still ended up becoming something other than what i had planned to benow i believe that lovers should be draped in flowersand layed entwined together on a bed of cloverand left there to sleepleft there to dream of their happiness A Perfect Sonnet// Bright Eyes..♥

talented with feelings not words

Can you hear it breaking already....Time is my enemy and frailty through naivety is my demiseThe feelings are overwhelming my entire being but in your presence I can only remain cold and speechlessWhy do I feel like its a one way beneficial relationship...Tables have turned, havent they?Worrying is delusional for you probably have no idea of how I feel and maybe there is nothing to worry aboutBUTI need to feel you next to me, to know you still care.Every minute next to the telephone is torture, as I feel like our relationship is decaying, before it has even startedYour ALL I think about...Is this feeling at all mutual?Lack of confidence and extreme dependence is what describes me bestThe only barrier to my happyness..They say you cannot love another if you dont love yourself...In my head, its all a mess."C'est pas l'histoire d'un jour qui rhyme avec amour..♥"Alysée

talented with feelings not words

Can you hear it breaking already....Time is my enemy and frailty through naivety is my demiseThe feelings are overwhelming my entire being but in your presence I can only remain cold and speechlessWhy do I feel like its a one way beneficial relationship...Tables have turned, havent they?Worrying is delusional for you probably have no idea of how I feel and maybe there is nothing to worry aboutBUTI need to feel you next to me, to know you still care.Every minute next to the telephone is torture, as I feel like our relationship is decaying, before it has even startedYour ALL I think about...Is this feeling at all mutual?Lack of confidence and extreme dependence is what describes me bestThe only barrier to my happyness..They say you cannot love another if you dont love yourself...In my head, its all a mess."C'est pas l'histoire d'un jour qui rhyme avec amour..♥"Alysée